I'm not really sure what to write here.
I miss Ashlee so much.
I hurt her.
I didn't mean too.
I'm just doing what I think is best.
I'm trying to save money, so we won't be completely broke when we get married.
Yeah, I'm working on Valentine's Day, but I had planned some surprise stuff to make for that, one of them technically ending Valentine's morning.
That's all been shot to hell.
The sad part is, I didn't even ruin it.
Well, that's not entirely true.
Ashlee killed it, but it's only due to my past lameness that she did.
I hadn't done anything previous to make her believe that I could be romantic, or surprise her, for that matter.
Dang, I suck.
Now I'm just sad, achy and can't seem to fall asleep no matter what.
I don't even get to see her until Friday, because I pissed her off.
I guess it's a good thing I didn't tell work that I wasn't going in today.
Angel said I could just call in, and that would be a-okay.
I'll go in, now, though.
Nobody want to see me.
Even my parents stray away from me.
Patrick tries not to be around me.
I just wish I had somebody to talk to, but I don't.
My only outlet if fucking Blogger.com
It's almost four in the morning, and I don't even have a semblance of tiredness.
All I wanted was to fall asleep on the phone.
I've gotten too used to that.
I need to remember that I really can't really on anybody, for anything.
If I can't get by on my own, then I shouldn't do it.
I'm the only person I can count on.
I'm the only one that knows my thoughts.
But out of every other person, in the entire world, I hate me the most.
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Never pull an all-nighter again.
ReplyDeleteThis is what happens. Lol.
I love you so much. :)